Leisure ...Loneliness ...Wait

Leisure, Loneliness, Wait
Three words that defines me now,
Three words that I find myself juggling with
Three dammed words that I know by heart, by now-
When one becomes the other I do not know,
Like I do not know how days turns to weeks,turns to months and then years.

I like it, ... do I?

I question myself many a times,
I keep on asking and in vain with no answer to console me with

I wonder, ...do I?

I wonder, how a bird flies so high without the fear of falling
I wonder, how fishes swim so deep in, without the fear of being burdened.

I fear, ...do I?

I fear the secrets to get exposed
I fear the complications to get untangled
I fear the day I loose these three words

Suddenly,
I am confused, ..am I?

Confused about everything that is shaping up,
Confused about the "man" I am liking
Confused about the small happiness still in my life
And then I ask again to me -

I like it, ...do I?
I say ... Yes "I DO".